He said I would never be taken serious as an artist if I used those materials, I tried to explain that I was using these cheap shiny embellishments precisely to highlight the cartoonish lens of Mexican culture imposed on a Peruvian family. But his chastisement hit home and I internalized shame. Shame for my poor taste as an artist.
Van Gogh Chica
Sunday, March 30, 2025
Be a 'degenerate'
He said I would never be taken serious as an artist if I used those materials, I tried to explain that I was using these cheap shiny embellishments precisely to highlight the cartoonish lens of Mexican culture imposed on a Peruvian family. But his chastisement hit home and I internalized shame. Shame for my poor taste as an artist.
Sunday, March 23, 2025
Eww weee, political catfighting
These days I am loathe to watch or read the news because it is so depressing. I do not feel the left has the infrastructure, strategy or energy to fight this decline of democracy happening in the US.* This morning's reading of The Guardian pushed this little thorn into my side: last week, the rightwing Conference on the State of Women and Family(CSWF) met in New York at the same time that the international rights' 69th Commission on the Status of Women met at the UN. What ensued that week was a horrific picture of women against women fighting.
While the mouthpieces for CSWF state they love and respect women, their platform calls for a halt in global efforts to empower women with equal rights. Their platform takes pages from four leading far right groups, one of which is Project 2025 and the other, C-Fam, which has been designated a hate group from Southern Poverty Law Center.
The rights' attack on what they call 'gender ideology' and a destruction of family values is being fueled by blatant lies, homophobia, misogyny, and anti-intellectualism. They attack universities as spreading corrosive thoughts and corrupting women. They want women at home, obeying their husband acting as breeders and leaving the workplace upper echelon for men only. And women will not pursue higher learning not approved by male powers that be.
These manipulative strategies must be confronted on a personal level - woman to woman, family to family. It is going to take a multiracial ground swell of women in the US to see that aligning themselves with the far right is signing their rights away.
Hey, I'm ready. If I could walk; well, I would be out in the streets burning my bra. Heck, I guess I could go in a wheelchair. But I need younger activists to do the organizing for me. I will support them, but I don't have ability to be on the front line like I was in the 80s. Women need to go back to the old ways of basic feminism 101 organizing. But this time we must have learned the lessons of class and race consciousness. The new woman's movement cannot be separate from racial and class struggles. We need to represent the majority of women.
I could write here about the ludacris lies spread by far right organizers like Denise Mountenay. But please, I urge you to get informed yourself. Start with the Guardian article I linked above. Women everywhere need to be able to talk about these issues with the other women in their lives. We can never again lie complacent while middle class white women align themselves with the far right like they did in electing Trump. We need a mass movement powered by one on one folks talking and working together. We cannot rely on the Democratic Party to do this. They have proved unreliable. Each individual woman must make it her mission to advocate for women's rights.
Talk with your sisters, talk with your friends. Educate yourself on women's history and our struggle for rights. Educate yourself on the needs of the majority of women in the US. We need to support our young women activists. Both young and old have much to teach each other.
This is me on my soapbox. Bad times are coming. We think they're bad now, but they're only going to get worse if there is no resistance, Do you want your daughters to be able to go to a university that has not been academically hobbled by the right? Do you want your nieces and friends to be able to have access to sex education, contraception and comprehensive healthcare? How about equality in the workplace? Do you want to have a voice in the governance of your own body and mind? Start where you can, Bring up conversations with friends, join an organization, contribute money, attend a protest.
Just do something. And keep your eyes on the prize.
* Lest I end on a despairing note, I offer up this analysis that shows popular resistance is on the rise. Thank you to my friend S, who dropped this in my messages today.
Wednesday, March 12, 2025
Find your tribe
Currently, I am relying on my tribe to support me during a difficult time. Of course I have the physical healing of my double spinal decompression surgeries and my RA. But I am also heartbroken. Several loved ones are facing hard times and I feel for them. But I am also grieving a falling out with someone I love. A much loved person, who has been close to me my entire life, is very angry with me. They are pulling back from me. Granted, I have pulled back from them, but not as drastically. The issues are almost irrelevant because it is impossible to have a lifetime relationship with someone in which you never have conflict. So the issues I brought forth are just wrinkles of frustration I felt we needed to iron out. But we do not have a history of being able to navigate disagreements easily.
I knew my friend would take my constructive criticism of certain behaviors personally, But I felt confident that upon reflection, she would come back and say something along the lines of “OK, I hear you . . . "
However, my attempt to initiate a discussion about things that are difficult for me were met with indignation. I do not feel I was heard at all. My words were twisted into something different - a personal attack of their character. We are at an impasse and I feel there is nothing I can do. I cannot stay silent when certain behaviors are alienating me. I need a two-way street in which we both listen to and try accommodate each other’s needs. I haven’t always advocated for myself in this regard. But I have grown to value myself enough to ask for what I need. Unfortunately, I have accepted many relationships in my life which were unequal in acceptance. But no more.
I have shed many tears over this falling out and I feel a bit rudderless in my life right now. I am grieving the relationship I wish I had with this person. The irony is that this person feels I do not love them, value them or respect them.
Thank God, I have my tribe to offer a shoulder for sadness. I trust in their constructive feedback. It makes a huge difference. I did not always have a great support network. Actually, this is a skill I have learned late in life. I have had to reach out and bring in those I want to create family with. I seem to be in a golden era of my life in which I am manifesting much that I have desired both within myself and with others.
I have heard from many people in South Florida that it is difficult to make friends here and I agree. From 25 years here, I only have a few, but they are solid. Most of my ride-or-die mates are folks I've known for decades. I learned late in life that I needed to tell those I love that I love them and to show them often. I learned to nurture relationships. And I learned to expect occasional turbulence and how to resolve conflict constructively and with kindness.
Do you have such a circle of people in your life if not, what prohibits you from finding them?
Sunday, March 9, 2025
Kokopelli
#LindysChallenge25
This is my first entry in a Lindy's Gang's monthly challenge. It is pretty simple as I don't have a lot of supplies yet. The March challenge was to use two Lindy's gangs products and incorporate rubberstamps and music.
I chose a depiction of the southwest indigenous icon Kokopelli, dancing and playing his flute. I hope to bring indigenous elements to my mixed media works as I am half indigenous from Peru. But wow, trying to find stencils or stamps of Andean indigenous motifs is very hard. I have actually found none. Thus I am portraying another indigenous motif from North America.
Although trained as a painter, I enjoy paper crafts. From card making to art journaling to mixed media. This art journal page utilized Lindy's gangs spray paints and powder pigments, along with rubberstamps and a stencil.
If you are interested in working with such materials, I encourage you wholeheartedly. It is so much fun.. All you need is an imagination, playfulness, and a workspace. Enjoy a 10% discount on Lindy's Gang products with my link. Use my discount code at checkout: DEBORAHSFL
Saturday, March 1, 2025
Recovery notes, 1
Tuesday, February 11, 2025
The time is now
This is a large self portrait I did a couple years ago. It is pencil on paper. I am standing in front of a poster for an art exhibit called Retratos, that featured Latino self portraits. I love this self portrait of mine because it shows me laughing with wild abandon. Just really enjoying myself fully and in the moment.
Friday, January 24, 2025
Know your rights
The orange one (our new president) is rabidly anti-immigrant, when it comes to immigrants of color. He is fine with the good type of immigrants like his wife.
So we need to protect immigrants of color from the harsher immigration laws that are coming into effect.
This is taken directly from Flimmigrant om Instagram:
Know Your Rights! Change is coming.
Everyone, regardless of their immigration status, has rights. It’s important to stay informed and empowered! Swipe through these graphics to learn about your rights in different situations.
Need assistance or have questions? Call our FLIC Hotline 📞 at 1-888-600-5762. We’re here to support you. 💛
If approached by immigration in Fl, know your rights.
Conozca sus derechos! Este 20 de enero llegarán cambios. Hay que estar preparados.
Todos, independientemente de su estatus migratorio, tiene derechos. ¡Es importante mantenerse informado y empoderado! Estos gráficos te ayudan a conocer tus derechos en diferentes situaciones.
¿Necesitas ayuda o tiene preguntas? Llama a nuestra línea de asistencia 📞 al 1-888-600-5762. Estamos aquí para apoyarte. 💛
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